I Am What I Am

by Moira on June 16, 2019

I was searching for large-size clothing shops here in Santiago, and found this ad campaign for Mango. Love this body positive message!

And the phrase, “one life so it’s time to open up your closet” has had me reflecting on what aspects of my experience have I been keeping in the closet?

One that is quite curious to me is the fact that I have lost about 30 pounds on this Remote Year adventure, and aside from sharing with a few friends, I haven’t talked about it much. Because? Well, it’s complicated.

There’s a paradox between living a lusty life whatever the size and wanting to be smaller. While I resonate with the body positive and Health At Every Size movements, I still have an attachment to my personal weight loss. I’m still in the process of unpacking all of this, and understanding that any paradox fundamentally cannot be resolved.

When I got on a scale for the first time four and a half months into this year-long adventure, I was shocked to see that I had lost 10 kg. I did the math to convert to pounds. Wait, what? The digital scale had a switch to display in pounds. Not quite believing what I saw, I moved the switch and weighed again. Yes, it was true.

I don’t really know how this happened. My mind goes all kinds of places with this (some of which I’ll focus on in future posts), but really it’s a mystery; there is no figuring it out.

It’s a process; it’s a practice; it’s a spiritual journey.

If you’d like to read more about my Remote Year adventure, you can find my travel blog at https://moiram.withvolo.com/